vinakanasya

  TW: suicidal thoughts Hi there, A quick post about 2020 is coming your way. I actually have a draft, but it is kind of stuck, so I am just gonna write this real fast. 2020 has been a very tough year for almost everyone. This pandemic forces us to live in a very isolated life, far from the crowd and social life we used to live in. However, is it just me, or the whole physical distancing, wearing masks, and washing our hands thingy make us realize how we don't really care about hygiene before this pandemic? Like, it wasn't our top priority. Now we just realize how in a large crowd, we are exchanging germs and bacteria in the air. At least from this pandemic, people are really keeping themselves and their environment clean, right?

Hey there. It’s been a long time since the last time I wrote here. Not gonna lie, I really miss writing here. As a matter of a fact, I have started this blog since 2011. And I have always tried to write here, despite of my routine and hectic schedule. The last time I wrote here, I talked about how corona affects my college life, where every class was suddenly conducted online. I also wrote about joining a writing competition and getting 11th place out of 960 participants, which I am very proud of. It has been a few months now. And I suddenly arrived at the end of my 7th semester. What a life. 2020 feels like…January, February, March, and then December. Also, my life hasn’t been that good.

Heyyyyaaa Maaf sudah lama sekali nggak nulis lagi di blog. Terakhir rekap 2019, yang aku tulis di bulan Janunari 2020. Ulang tahun Februari 2020 juga nggak buat tulisan apa-apa. Maret berjalan normal, sampai pas pertengahan Maret keluar himbauan untuk #dirumahaja dan melakukan social distancing untuk mencegah penyebaran Covid-19. And so here I am, day ??? of quarantine. Day 50 of quarantine (I just counted) [P.S: I started writing this on May 4th, and haven’t really been able to finish it until whatever day I eventually posted this. I was sick for 2 days and couldn’t do anything but laying on bed. Sorry for that <3] Nggak ada yang menduga bahwa sampe akhir semester ini harus belajar dari rumah. Termasuk mata kuliah micro teaching, which is supposed to be conducted in the lab , akhirnya harus nyerah juga dan ngajarnya dengan rekam video di rumah. Awalnya, belajar di rumah diinstruksikan selama 2 minggu aja, menunggu perkembangan keadaan. Yang ternyata tidak membaik juga. Huft.

“Don’t read the last page But I stay when it’s hard or it’s wrong or we’re making mistakes I want your midnights But I’ll be cleaning up bottles with you on new year’s day Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you And I will hold on to you Please, don’t ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere Please, don’t ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere.” – New Year’s Day by Taylor Swift (Taylor’s New Year’s Day was on repeat again) Hey reader(s) I am really sorry that I couldn’t post my 2019 wrap up that I usually make at the end of December 2019. Yesterday was hectic. I did a lot of cleaning up in my house, and yesterday I was really in a mood to do some cleaning. Therefore, while I was cleaning my house, a lot of thoughts about my 2019 were also popping out in my head. I was thinking about my 2019. Was it amazing, excellent,...

“Don’t read the last page But I stay when it’s hard or it’s wrong or we’re making mistakes I want your midnights But I’ll be cleaning up bottles with you on new year’s day Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you And I will hold on to you Please, don’t ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere Please, don’t ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere.” – New Year’s Day by Taylor Swift *** Heya reader(s)! It has been 7 months since the last time I posted here. I am really sorry that I’ve been very unproductive for the last 2 years. I don’t want to blame my college life, though. It’s just my poor time management skill. Anyway, I want to give some updates on my college life.

Heya I finally clicked this Blogger application on my phone after a very looooonggg time I didn't click on this icon.  Especially that "make a new post" icon. I just want to put that title, I don't even know why. At first, I thought the title might be "I take 24 credits this semester" but it turns out that I delete 1 subject from my system and made it back into 22 credits. So, yeah I had a plan to take Business Writing with 2 credits, but after I inputted it, I felt so guilty. So on the next day I decided to delete it. But actually this post ain't going to be how my college life has been for the last 4 days. Srsly.

Hari ini, usiaku resmi memasuki kepala dua. Dan hari ini, untuk pertama kalinya, aku tidak ingin mempublikasikan hari bahagia ini. Sejak semalam hanya memikirkan bahwa tepat sebelum tanggal berganti menjadi 3 Februari, aku akan mempublikasikan sesuatu di blog dan mungkin status Whatsapp.

HEYAAAAAAA Mon maap banget ni setahun kemaren gaada tulisan baru :”) terakhir nulis adalah 10 bulan lalu, Februari 2018. Karena sudah jadi kebiasaanku setiap akhir tahun untuk menulis kaleidoskop, aku nggak akan melewatkan tahun ini. Kebiasaan ini udah aku mulai sejak tahun 2013, dan masih akan aku lakukan. Jujur, kecewa sama diri sendiri setahun kemaren melanggar revolusi untuk lebih produktif dalam menulis. Tapi, mau gimana lagi. Let’s get to the story. Di kaleidoskop ku tahun lalu, aku menulis tentang bagaimana di 2018 aku akan menghadapi dunia kuliah yang dinamis dan penuh kejutan. Seenggaknya, itulah yang sungguh terjadi di 2018 ini. Akhir tahun lalu, aku bercerita tentang betapa menyenangkannya semester satuku bersama 25 teman lain di kelas A kecil. Di kaleidoskop ini, aku akan cerita secara garis besar perjalananku bersama mereka setahun ini.

19. The last year being a teenager, based on the etimology of my age. Secara etimologi, nineteen adalah usia terakhir seseorang bisa dikatakan sebagai remaja. ‘teen’ berasal dari kata ‘teenager´ atau remaja. Itu cuma tebak-tebakan sendiri aja sih wkwkwk. Tapi kalo dilansir dari etymonline.com , -teen adalah sebuah suffix atau elemen yang digunakan untuk membentuk angka kardinal dari 13-19 yang memiliki arti ‘ten more than’ . Aku juga baru tau, barusan browsing wkwk. Nggak kerasa tiba-tiba aja udah umur segini. Rasanya baru kemaren lari-lari di koridor kampus dengan seragam SD. Baru kemaren nekat jalan dari sekolah ke kampus gara-gara ditinggal anjem trus bikin beberapa dosen heboh ehehehe. Udah jadi tradisi pribadi buat aku untuk bikin tulisan sebelum ulang tahun. Nggak ada tujuan khusus gitu sih. Nulis ya nulis aja. Tahun lalu pun demikian.

“Jujur, saya tidak menyangka akan menghabiskan masa putih abu-abu di salah satu sekolah di bawah naungan Yayasan Tarakanita. Terlebih, sekolah tempat saya menimba ilmu sekarang adalah sebuah sekolah homogen putri. Sebuah pengalaman baru yang luar biasa.” – vin, 16 Oktober 2016 Satu tahun berselang setelah aku buat tulisan itu untuk ikut lomba pengalaman reflektif se-Tarakanita Jogja, dan sampai hari ini masih nggak nyangka angin membawa langkahku ke salah satu sekolah homogen putri di Yogyakarta. Bahkan, empat tahun yang lalu saat aku masih memakai seragam putih biru, aku nggak nyangka bakal melanjutkan pendidkan di SMA Stella Duce 2, atau Stero. Aku juga nggak pernah ngebayangin bakal kaya apa masa putih abu-abuku di sekolah homogen waktu itu. Siang tadi waktu lagi jalan-jalan di timeline Instagram dan tiba-tiba aku nemuin beberapa postingan senada di timeline . Banyak temen yang mencurahkan kerinduannya sama Stero. Nggak cuma temen-temen, tapi juga beberapa guru yang aku ...