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(This post was supposed to be posted on June 2, 2021) - and here I am, literally 3 weeks later. The feels might have disappeared, but the memories will never. August 21, 2017 - June 2, 2021 That is 3 years, 9 months, and 12 days. From my first day in college to the day I defended my final thesis. Yeah, I just defended my thesis on Wednesday, June 2, 2021 I couldn't thank you enough for everyone who has been and still is supporting me to this day. My family, my friends, my lecturers, and so many amazing amazing people in my life have brought me to the point where I stand right now.

Hey! It's been a month since my last update here, and there is something I want write here. This is a story of how I build a long-distance friendship with someone I met through the internet. Remember few post ago when I said I posted a fiction I have been working on somewhere on the internet under a pseudonym? From that platform, I got acquainted with someone. It was around July-August 2020. Her name is Gaby. We talked a bit and later found out that we both speak the Indonesian language. We often talk about the fiction she writes there on the platform and writing in general. We continued talking until one day she stopped posting on her account and didn't reply to my message.

  What I've been talking about lately is finally here to see the bright of the daylight. Hi hi hi hiiiii Sudah lama sekali nggak nulis pake Bahasa Indonesia. Bukan, bukan karena nilainya B di transkrip, cuma emang selalu merasa lebih ekspresif dan flow nya lebih enak aja kalo pake Bahasa Inggris. Oke, jadi, less than a month ago, I wrote this post. Dan disitu aku bahas lagi soal Best Writer. Dan tanpa aku sadari, aku belom pernah sama sekali ngepost tulisan yang buat aku menang best writer di mana pun. Tulisan itu aku post di websitenya DBL Journalist Competition (yang bahkan sekarang udah ngga ada wkwk), 5 tahun yang lalu. Di post itu aku nulis:  

 (I legit google my 2017 academic calendar and use a time calculator to get that title. August 2017, 21)   April 7, 2021 So, today was...very emotional for me. 4 of my classmates had defended their thesis. And I am so proud of them, I couldn't even describe it. I am beyond ecstatic and happy for them finally getting the Bachelor of Education degree. Today's post might go in a very random direction, but I just want to write something.  Let me start with this photo below that I just made a few hours ago:  

 "Look how far we've come And it was all so unexpected We were broke and we were young But somehow we stayed connected So we hold on to our better days 'Cause easy come, easy go away Still can't believe we were the lucky ones Look how far we've come" – The Lucky Ones, Pentatonix Hi! This inspiration came from yesterday's meeting (I wrote this on Saturday, I don't know when I will post this, maybe Saturday, maybe another day). For context, I have been part of the Dialogue Magazine editorial team since October 2018. I joined because their photographer resigned for some reason, and they needed someone to fill in. And so I was contacted, they politely asked if I wanted to join as a photographer. It took me some time to consider although I finally agreed. And there I was, the only member from batch 2017 who didn't have a batch in Dialogue because I was recruited through close recruitment. As time goes by, I feel that my job in Dialogue was not a phot

Hi! It’s been a month since my last trashy post in February. I’ve been thinking about giving another ‘a life update’ title on this one, but then I figure out better not. If you were here last month, I wrote a very personal ramble. In that post, I told y’all that I was about to meet a psychiatrist because counseling ain’t helping anymore. And guess what, I finally made the appointment. Hell yeah. I sacrificed 3 hours sitting in the hospital, exposed to coronavirus risk for that appointment. Also, in those 3 hours, I had to read several materials for my class at 2. What a perfect combo.

  At this point, I will just title all my post with ‘a life update’ lol Hi there! It’s been more than a month since my last post. Also, I didn’t post anything on my birthday, 2 weeks ago. Yeah, I turned 22 this year. And this was the first year where I wasn’t excited for my birthday at all, as well as the Chinese New Year. There’s just too much energy wasted there (if there was energy left to waste). I started to withdraw myself from a lot of stuff. I restrict my post on my social media, and started an anonymous account somewhere on the internet to write things that I believe will never fit here. Those consists some uncomfortably personal things that I don’t want people in my circle to find out, but I want to get out of my head. Writing has always been my coping mechanism and currently is the only way for me to maintain my sanity. I express things better through writing, I guess. I also have been very quiet and only talk a lot with my therapist whom I see once a week.