vinakanasya

  TW: suicidal thoughts Hi there, A quick post about 2020 is coming your way. I actually have a draft, but it is kind of stuck, so I am just gonna write this real fast. 2020 has been a very tough year for almost everyone. This pandemic forces us to live in a very isolated life, far from the crowd and social life we used to live in. However, is it just me, or the whole physical distancing, wearing masks, and washing our hands thingy make us realize how we don't really care about hygiene before this pandemic? Like, it wasn't our top priority. Now we just realize how in a large crowd, we are exchanging germs and bacteria in the air. At least from this pandemic, people are really keeping themselves and their environment clean, right?

Hey there. It’s been a long time since the last time I wrote here. Not gonna lie, I really miss writing here. As a matter of a fact, I have started this blog since 2011. And I have always tried to write here, despite of my routine and hectic schedule. The last time I wrote here, I talked about how corona affects my college life, where every class was suddenly conducted online. I also wrote about joining a writing competition and getting 11th place out of 960 participants, which I am very proud of. It has been a few months now. And I suddenly arrived at the end of my 7th semester. What a life. 2020 feels like…January, February, March, and then December. Also, my life hasn’t been that good.

Heyyyyaaa Maaf sudah lama sekali nggak nulis lagi di blog. Terakhir rekap 2019, yang aku tulis di bulan Janunari 2020. Ulang tahun Februari 2020 juga nggak buat tulisan apa-apa. Maret berjalan normal, sampai pas pertengahan Maret keluar himbauan untuk #dirumahaja dan melakukan social distancing untuk mencegah penyebaran Covid-19. And so here I am, day ??? of quarantine. Day 50 of quarantine (I just counted) [P.S: I started writing this on May 4th, and haven’t really been able to finish it until whatever day I eventually posted this. I was sick for 2 days and couldn’t do anything but laying on bed. Sorry for that <3] Nggak ada yang menduga bahwa sampe akhir semester ini harus belajar dari rumah. Termasuk mata kuliah micro teaching, which is supposed to be conducted in the lab , akhirnya harus nyerah juga dan ngajarnya dengan rekam video di rumah. Awalnya, belajar di rumah diinstruksikan selama 2 minggu aja, menunggu perkembangan keadaan. Yang ternyata tidak membaik juga. Huft.

“Don’t read the last page But I stay when it’s hard or it’s wrong or we’re making mistakes I want your midnights But I’ll be cleaning up bottles with you on new year’s day Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you And I will hold on to you Please, don’t ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere Please, don’t ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere.” – New Year’s Day by Taylor Swift (Taylor’s New Year’s Day was on repeat again) Hey reader(s) I am really sorry that I couldn’t post my 2019 wrap up that I usually make at the end of December 2019. Yesterday was hectic. I did a lot of cleaning up in my house, and yesterday I was really in a mood to do some cleaning. Therefore, while I was cleaning my house, a lot of thoughts about my 2019 were also popping out in my head. I was thinking about my 2019. Was it amazing, excellent,