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Panic! At The Disco - Don't Let The Light Go Out Hi. Hello. I don't usually write about music or a song, but when I heard this song, I immediately know that I am going to write something about it. When Panic! At The Disco released their Viva Las Vengeance album, I didn't listen to it right away though I really like the first single that has been released a couple of months prior. One fine afternoon, I decided to listen to the whole album. I believe that an album is not just an album, it's an experience, so I gotta free my time to listen to it, or at least not put it as background music while doing chores.

Hi. Hello. Udah lama banget sejak postingan terakhirku di sini. Setahun yang lalu. Itu sebelum aku bikin a sudden post, which I post before my graduation ceremony 3 months ago . (dan semoga ga akan terjadi lagi, cuma post tiap blog ulang tahun xD) Sebenernya, aku punya 2 draft tulisan yang hampir aku post di bulan Oktober. Yang satu berhenti di introduction, yang satu udah sempet aku post, tapi aku revert back jadi draft. Yang balik jadi draft itu udah jadi, tapi setelah aku pikir-pikir, kayaknya mending tulisan itu nggak ada yang baca. And those posts probably will never see the broad of daylight. Aku juga nggak buat postingan rekap setahunku di bulan Desember. Pas ulang tahun juga nggak. Tapi tulisan ini pengen banget aku post. Mikirnya udah berbulan-bulan. Ngumpulin ceritanya juga udah sejak lama. So, here we go. It all started with Eternals that I watched once when it entered Disney+, January 12, 2022

March 9, 2021 a note to myself This is a day before my graduation ceremony, or should I say, less than 12 hours. A few hours ago I attended my graduation night via Zoom. I didn't expect it to be emotional; but there I was holding my tears while the operator put my frame and 2 other frames in the highlight when it was announced that I was the second best graduate of my study program. I turned off my camera as soon as the event moved on because I was legit crying. Never in my life had I imagined by achievement would be celebrated, and not criticized; would be applauded and not booed. I have been keeping this to myself for 4 years. Something I never talked about; something that barely sees the broad daylight: I always feel bad for my achievement I feel bad for getting an A in hard subjects I feel bad for getting an A where a lot of my friends didn't get one I feel bad for performing excellent in the class  I feel bad for being happy after I did good I feel bad for getting a compli